Dearest Sara,
It's been 4 years and almost 3 months. It hasn't been easy. None of it.

Watching the psycho go after you. Watching him do all those terrible things to you. Watching him take your life. It wasn't supposed to happen.

You were supposed to live the greatest life one could ever live. You were supposed to be here, spreading the word of God to those who may not know. You were supposed to grow up, have a great family, tons of friends, and just be you. But he never gave you that chance.

I'll always remember the times that I'd come visit my family and you were there. I'll always remember the times we spent together, acting like idiots. I'll always remember the way you lived for God, like nothing else mattered in the world. I'll always remember how caring you were when all I needed was just someone who would listen. I'd always do the same for you.

Do you remember the time when we went down to the lake, and I fell into the water? Do you remember how I pulled you in too? Do you remember all the great times we spent together doing normal teenage girl activities: shopping, movies, etc?

I wish I could take it all back. I wish we could spend more time together. I wish that we could both live long happy lives.

Had I known it would be over so soon, I wouldn't have left the house. And I know you wouldn't have either because when we were together, we were inseparable. Had I known this would happen, we would have walked one block farther.

I'd give anything to take it back. I'd give anything to be in your place. I'd give anything to have you here with me.

But it'll never happen. I know you wouldn't have wanted me to take your place, and it's selfish for me to want that. We'll never get to spend all of our weekends together. We'll never get to have the fun we used to have.

It's so hard losing your best friend. It's the hardest thing I've ever gone through. It hasn't gotten easier. I just hide it. No one ever understands what I went through. No one ever knew you. If they had, they'd realize why it's so hard.

I'd give ANYTHING to take it back.

"Not a day goes by that I don't think of you. After all this time, you're still with me it's true" - Lonestar

I miss you and love you so much,
Amy